MatthewConnors Photography Blog
I thought it was time to quiet the crickets and turn the lights back on here. Life has a way of sucking you into a vacuum and, unfortunately, this site was a casualty. As a general rule bloggers are told not to blog if they have nothing to say. Well, I’ve been mute.
Spring sports have begun for the kids –to a somewhat hesitant beginning– and our days are full and hectic as we cycle from school, to homework, to dinner, to multiple sports, to showers, to bed. I also fell into a period of gear lust (a periodic trap for me) and daydreaming. Months ago I ordered a FujiFilm X-Pro1. From the moment I hit “Pay” on Adorama’s website I began to dream of the images I would make with a new camera that was so “>
light-weight and “revolutionary”. Those daydreams effected my use of my D700 that I actually did own, or, I should say, my disuse of my D700. Suddenly I found myself not taking photographs as I waited for the X-Pro to arrive.
If gear lust wasn’t enough of a distraction, I also began to plan a road trip out West to see friends in Montana and tie-in a stop at ART. My wife and I had spent 2 years living in Montana and I’ve always missed the mountains. This was my chance to relive old times. You know the kind of trip I mean: an epic American road adventure. A Kerouac/Steinbeck saga, just me, my dog, my camera, and my truck loaded with camping gear. A story at every stop, a load of memory cards to fill with images of Americana.
A delusion.
It didn’t take me long (well is a over a month long?) to realize that at current gas prices, in a truck that averages 14 mpg, the trip West would empty
our bank account of around $2000 and that wasn’t taking into account the ART costs of the trip. That was a selfishly large amount of money to spend on trip only for myself at the expense of my family and a possible trip with the kids somewhere. As my road-trip dream crumbled I realized that I had found another way to ignore my photography and the pictures I could take as I plotted and imagined the pictures I would take.
Why do I sabotage myself like this? I really don’t know. I’ve spent a considerable amount of time lately trying to decipher what the role of photography is in my life. The answers and questions from which I’ll save for a future post. My trip West is still happening, but it has shrunk to include simply a trip to ART, on a plane, minus a dog. Still exciting and something I’m looking forward to, but the dregs and vapors of my fantasy are still drifting off leaving a sense of despondency and monotony in life.
I did receive the X-Pro around a month ago. The internet is flooded with reviews on the X-Pro, so I won’t take that route. I will say that I am really enjoying the camera: it’s 35mm lens is amazingly sharp for the price, the form factor is refreshing and exciting for a fella with a D700 and no experience with a rangefinder sized camera, the autofocus has not hindered me as much as I feared from other user reviews.
Here are some images from a hike the other day taken with the X-Pro.
The panorama feature –not something that would normally interest me– is fun and accurate.
Still playing around with my new iPad. This photo was loaded and processed solely on it. For those tech oriented and interested I’m finding myself using Nik Software’s Snapseed and Apple’s iPhoto quite a bit. Bouncing photos between the 2. If you haven’t tried them and like playing with mobile images you should look into them; especially for monochrome work.
Another foggy morning today. I love photographing in fog. There is something about the atmosphere fog lends to an image. A simplicity and starkness. The appearance of things being wiped clean; erased for a new beginning.
Unfortunately, I was viewing the fog from inside most of the morning, but was eventually able to get out and catch the last pockets before they burnt away for the day.
It was about 2 weeks ago that I took the picture below.
Yeah. This was yesterday. Spring must have arrived if it’s time to play in the water. Of course, it’s Northeast Ohio. There could be snow again tomorrow. But that would only be a temporary blow to our spring fever.
I’ve been far too quiet here on the blog. My apologies.
I’ve had many comments on what a fun portrait series the Wreck the Cake idea is that I shared in my previous post.
Many people wondered what becomes of the leftover cake…well, ok, no one has really asked that, but I thought I’d share.
Waste not, want not. Now go get some cake.
Yeah, my sister wasn’t very impressed either when I slipped this one into the folder of images I sent her.
This past weekend I shot some photos of my niece for her first birthday. Sure, “Wreck the dress” is the rage in wedding circles right now, but I don’t see many brides with the courage to deprive their guests of desert by smashing their wedding cakes. One year olds are pretty self-centered though.
“Wreck the cake” is sweeping the toddler realm.
This morning was a beautiful wintry one. A light snow had fallen overnight and was clinging to the trees, a fog had moved in, and there was a wonderful incandescent blue to everything. Muted whiteness. Some of my favorite picture making conditions. I was lamenting that I was housebound getting the kids ready for school.
Driving a few hours later with my daughter I passed the scene below. Put simply it struck me as a beautiful scene that I shouldn’t pass by without taking a picture. I turned around, stopped on the street, got out, stood by the hood, took a 3 photos (two of which I put together into the panorama below), got back in the truck, and drove on to Storytime class.
The picture doesn’t really contain the beauty of the moment, but I gave it a try. It’d be nice if we always had time to scout locations, compose a shot and move around to recompose, wait for the light or right moment, set up the tripod, etc., but we don’t always have time for those choices. I too discovered what Mark Krajnak recently shared: we practice our photography in the moments we experience and in the time we have.
Serendipity.
I took the kids to the high school for a basketball game tonight. My son and I were on the way back from the bathroom and this picture was suddenly before my eyes and my iPhone was in hand.
It was off the cuff and instinctual, but I like it. It’s fun.
I was cleaning out my iPhone’s photo gallery and came across these images that I had taken and never put to any use. It’s honestly hard to imagine not having an iPhone now that I’ve grown accustomed to it – Apple’s witchery I suppose. For me there is no better notebook and sketchpad I could carry around.
Incidentally, I converted all the images to monochrome using Nik Software’s Snapseed which has been my iPhone photo app of choice for a while. It took me some time to get accustomed to the app, and it’s not the fastest for editing, but it’s a powerful and versatile photo processor.
We had a beautiful winter’s morning today. I was able to take the dog and get out for a couple of hours. Mornings like this are such a recharge for me, both in a personal way and in a creative way – in the way I see the natural world around me.
It’s always great when something puts a creative idea in your head and others are game for helping you. She had the costume on, all I had to do was find a green rock. And stop her from giggling.
We had fun.
Beautiful hike with the mutt this morning. The curves and possibility of contrast caught my eye here. I was (once again) caught only with my iPhone, but it can handle such shots easily.
It’s been a slow winter for snowfall to date. Last week, however, we did have a brief storm and hung on to the snow long enough for a trip to the sled hill. It was a beautiful day and we had the hill to ourselves. It’s already evident that this winter is going to be a good for sledding with the kids. They are all old enough that the jitters are over and sledding is simply fun.
We spent an hour at the hill and I took a few photos. Once I had the pictures on the computer an urge struck me to convert them to black and white. I did, and I liked them that way. The sun and snow were giving everything a bright, washed out look and I was aiming for a contrasty look to the photos. By removing the color, I wanted to draw attention to the kids’ formation in the first image and the lines in the second image. The color images weren’t bad at all, but the color wasn’t necessary for my purposes. I still have the color versions and I may someday find that I prefer those for different reasons and purposes.
Looking at the work of fellow photographers it’s quite obvious that monochromatic work has not lost any of its popularity since the invent of photography. Do you prefer converting to black and white in your images? Why? I’d be interested to hear your reasons.
P.S.: I’m going to make a concerted effort this year to consolidate my photo posting to one site instead of multiple (Tumblr, Google+, Facebook, etc.) and it’s logical to make my website the primary location of photos.
Some Christmas gifts being put to use.
I love the feel of images that have a dark surrounding and a subject lit in the midst of it. Saying goodnight to the kids a few nights ago, I realized they were providing me an opportunity for just such photos.
I bothered them for the next 10 minutes as they attempted to read. They were patient with me as always, but I’m pretty sure they don’t remember the pages they read.
Happy New Year everyone.
Every New Year’s Eve we host some family for a beef roast and to ring in the new year. This year I added an impromptu photo studio to the party. I threw together a backdrop stand from some 2x4s, put up a soft box, dug up some props, and cajoled people into getting in front of the camera – even myself. Once the ice was broken, people were into it (drinks may have helped crack that ice too).
Nothing unique here (I discovered that even the music I selected from ccmixter is all over the web), but these are photos I and my family look at and laugh about for years.
Well worth the effort. Preserving such moments is an aspect and power of photography I love.
The year is drawing to a close, which means – unless I accomplish an awful lot in the next few weeks – that I have not fully met all of my goals of 2011. In truth, many things have remained the same since my mid-point update. The silver lining is that, as usually happens in life, many things I hadn’t planned on or expected occurred to me this year that I am both grateful for and excited about.
First, lets review my success rate of meeting my intended goals laid out at year’s start. Actually, let’s look from the mid-point review.
I still do not feel that I have met this goal very well. Here’s the thing, I have several reasons, excuses, and explanations as to why, but none will be original or unheard before. Naturally, a lack of time is the largest limiting factor, but also the most inexcusable reason: It comes down to making the time. More at the heart of it is that I lack a purpose for getting out. I have reached a point (reasonable or unreasonable) that if I don’t have a project or purpose behind shooting, I lack motivation. If I don’t have an outlet for my work besides web-posting or a topic for a blog post, I don’t see a reason for the photos.
Well, that may be a little too rigid. I still enjoy playing with the camera, toying around with flash modifiers, attempting to produce imagined results, but I also find myself wondering, for example, why I should go produce landscape images when so many others produce far better ones; why take the time trying to catch a macro of that flying bee when so many better insect macros are produced? What will I do with those images if I did go out and produce them? I’m not arguing that my reasoning is sound, but that is how my thought processs is running of late.
Since mid-summer (6-month point of my yearly goals) I haven’t had the opportunity to meet-up anymore with fellow photographers. That’s a disappointment as I really enjoy the fellowship and exchanges that I have when with other photographers.
No collaborative projects in which I produced any work really came to fruition for me in 2011. There was some talk of joint projects with other photographers, but nothing developed. I do however count my involvement in Rear Curtain as a collaborative project. My interactions with other photographers and their work via Rear Curtain has been a fantastic and inspirational learning experience. It has exposed me to people and work – most importantly the development of that work – that I wouldn’t have had access to otherwise.
Exciting news here! I am now a print-published photographer. My story Disconnect was published in Rear Curtain Issue 1. There really is nothing like seeing your work in print, holding it in your hands, flicking through the pages with your thumb. Full disclosure: I am Associate Editor for Rear Curtain. I would be lying if I didn’t admit that there was a part of me that suspected my position with RC may have helped push my story into print. The suspicion was based more on my insecurity than fact: in actuality, favoritism is not something practiced with the RC staff.
My insecurities have been alleviated, however. I have been both humbled and encouraged by the response to Disconnect. I have received compliments and notes from photographers I greatly respect and from photographers I never imagined would notice my work which have given me confidence that Disconnect is a strong photo-essay and that it belongs with the other work we publish on RC. Thanks to all of you.
While Disconnect’s publication was very exciting for me, I’ve also been publishing more work on the web. The problem I began to run into was that I was spreading myself across far too many sites and outlets, an easily accomplished thing in today’s over-saturated social media and photo-sharing environment. For various reasons I have not been interested in photo-sharing sites such as Flickr or 500px for some time now. I do find myself sharing pictures via Twitter for amusement. I also have this blog on which I share images and thoughts. What’s new though? In the past 6 months I have begun 2 Tumblr sites. One, that I post random musings and images, is HERE. Nothing earth-shattering there, but fun.
I have also begun a series about my youngest daughter and our dog, inventively titled A Girl and Her Pup HERE. This has functioned well as a creative outlet for me and has been helpful in keeping my creativity and imagination active. Several people have let me know how much they are enjoying the series. Thank you.
I am still using and learning light at about the same level as 6 months ago, which is to say using it occasionally; mostly playing and practicing. I have not felt completely comfortable enough with lighting to use it in portrait work yet, although I have set up a shoot through umbrella to just blast a room and lighten the scene up. I do play with some modifiers and settings much more when shooting family. The key here is to find a sense of competence and confidence to use light as a modifier for paid work without thinking I’m looking incompetent, while still keeping a feeling of fun and experimentation that clients will respect.
All in all, I still see the power that light can play in setting a mood in an image and also in helping me reach my concepts for images more, I just need to use it and integrate it more until some of the knowledge becomes instinctual.
Not much new in the last 6 months that I can add here. Since ART 2011 I have not attended any other workshops. The cost of many workshops is certainly prohibitive for me at this point, but more so it is the topics and what is offered at many workshops that doesn’t appeal to me for the price. As I said in my mid-point review, I still believe a course in processing or web-development would serve me best. That said, I would like to make it to ART 2012 because of it’s reasonable price, the people I met at the ART 2011, and the content that builds upon ART 2011’s workshop topics.
Ok, this is really where I’d hoped to excel and build a good foundation over the past year. I don’t feel that I’ve done that. I did have several jobs this past year, but since early fall work has stopped. I could blame this on the economy, people spending on holiday’s instead, or other factors, and those are partly at fault I’m sure. But I’m aware that I am to blame too. I should have prepared a set of holiday packages (christmas card sessions), or discounted my price over this season. I realize that I need to promote my business more, to incentivize my past clients to return to me and also to refer my business to others. Overall, I need a lot of work here; a whole rework of how I’ve been doing things.
So there it is. Twelve months later and I’ve laid out my accomplishments, and, I suppose, my failures. I wish I could say I feel satisfied with my progress, but, overall, I feel like I have been stuck in a rut. I have a bunch of excuses, crutches, and reasoning that I could plead, but none would be original or really acceptable. Many of them derive from fear, uncertainty, and timidness. Lots to review and rework as I ring in 2012.
Happy Holidays to you all. Thanks for all the support, interest, and inspiration you’ve given me in 2011.
This short post relates to my previous on working a location until you have an image you are happy with. Conversely, I suppose you could think of it as working an image concept until you’re satisfied (if ever) with a finished image. That is how I see this image below.
I was rummaging through some archives and came upon this image from last winter. I actually have mention of this same image in my notebook because I wasn’t happy with the results. I was aiming for a feeling of warmth. A feeling of being a child, having played outside in the cold all day and making your way home knowing that inside are you parents, hot chocolate, and a warm blanket.
I think I have brushed upon my intentions, but I want to redo a similar photo to try bring the kids and sled out more. When I took this nearly a year ago, I had just begun to play with off-camera flash. I was fumbling with settings and begging the kids to hold the pose; pleading with them to shiver just a little while longer while I tweaked this or that. I am by no means expert with flash a year later, but I have become more familiar with lighting that I should give this a go again. Provided I can talk the kids into it.
Are there any image concepts that you plan or want to give a to-over? Or are some of you more the take it, learn from it, and move on type?
Too often life and the responsibilities that it includes force us to move at a faster pace than we’d like. More often than not a shutter press is more spontaneous than planned. That’s not a negative, and lots of pictures produced on instinct turn out beautifully. Many times there is only a moment to catch the scene in front of us. But, given the opportunity, taking time at an event or location can give a photographer the opportunity to produce work with greater intent and content. When is the last time you were able to slow down and really work a location? There are of course variable definitions of “work”. It might simply imply remaining at a scene continually talking pictures until you feel that you’ve achieved your goal or it might include returning over and over to a location fine-tuning the moment you want.
The topic above occurred to me as I was out hiking and scouting for some leafy, tree-filled locations for the coming autumn color change. I’d heard of a nearby Amish horse road[1] owned by the county parks and set out for it.

As I suspected, I was early for color change (*above*), but liked the potential of the site. I was also there too early in the day for the light I wanted from the sun. I returned twice over the next few weeks later in the day to gauge the color change and sun position. In the end I didn’t catch peak color at this site or in Ohio[2], but I captured some pictures with the feel that I wanted. I was trying to capture a feeling of adventure and unknown destinations, while showing the companionship of a man and dog. Hefty load to portray in a single image maybe. How did I do? I like the light I achieved and the hint of adventure (the backpack, dog, long path ahead). Still, I’ll be returning to this site next autumn if possible to try and tweak the results more. For instance, maybe I’ll have trained the dog how to walk next to me on command instead of behind me so he’s not lost in my legs.


Honestly, I don’t find (or make) the time as I should for working a location; for trying to catch the right light, or patiently waiting for the right moment of serendipity. One of my goals[3] in the coming year is to get out more with my camera. Out more in search of stories and locations. Are you able to make the time for working a location? Do you find more success in planning a picture or are you more successful shooting from instinct and moving on?
The dirt road is closed to autos and cuts between two busier paved roads essentially functioning as shortcut for Amish horse buggies and recreational use.
↩I traded peak in Ohio to take a trip down to the Blue Ridge Mountains of North Carolina to catch up with an old friend and try to catch peak color at higher altitudes there.
↩More on 2012 goals in a future post.
↩I’ve been reading and hearing a lot of negativity about Christmas on Twitter, blogs, the news, and radio. It appears that Christmas is taking a verbal smackdown. I realize that the backlash is directed at the commercial sector’s abuse of Christmas rather than the season itself. Indeed, Christmas has been tainted by the commercialization. In all likelihood I would be one of the voices deriding the season if not for one thing: my kids.
My kids’ innocence, excitement, and seasonal cheer is infectious. Their chicken-scratch lists of wanted gifts, the magazines filled with circled items, their excitement at seeing Santa, the laugh-filled tree decorating, their addiction to candy canes, their joy at seeing family more frequently than usual, the X’ed off calendar days counting down to the 24th, all bring a freshness and anticipation to Christmas in
our house.
It’s important not to let the commercial infection of Christmas deflect the excitement we should feel at this time of year whatever our beliefs and religious base. Granted, as parents we walk a fine line between balancing the omnipresent commercial aspects while working to instill the true meaning of Christmas as we see it (raised Catholic but no longer actively practicing). We don’t want to take away the excitement of gift-wrapped boxes and new toys, but my wife and I reiterate the messages of giving, family, and love during this season.
Certainly things have changed from when I was young. I was ecstatic to get GI Joe figures or a Star Wars ship. Now my kids are asking for laptops and iPods. My 3 year old keeps asking Santa for a Nintendo DS and she can’t even spell it. We are inundated and targeted earlier and earlier in the season with the advertisements and commercial pressures that accompany Christmas, but that doesn’t have to be the focus for us or children.
We’ll enjoy this season through the eyes of our children. Much of parenting is like walking a tightrope the trick is not to get so hung-up on the dangers that you miss the beautiful view.
Seven months ago I was invited by Ray Ketcham to join a project that he and Sabrina Henry were working on. That project was called Rear Curtain (RC). The aim was to provide a showcase for photographic stories while also providing a resource of motivation and learning for emerging storytellers. Through that association I have been fortunate enough to meet some amazing storytellers and view some stunning contemporary photographic stories. We began RC as a web-based magazine, but had intentions from the start of taking it further. Today I am proud to announce that RC has reached a milestone, we have released a print version containing some of the work we have featured over the last several months.
We are extremely proud to have the trust and support of the photographers we host. The content in Issue 1 is a diverse mix of stories from the touchingly heartfelt (A Story of Love) to the fictional noir (Black Out Night), from an essay on cultural sensitivity (Understanding Culture) applicable to all portraiture to interviews with some of today’s leading storytellers (Gavin Gough and Steven Uhraney). And that’s just a sampling of the magazine’s content.
I don’t usually like telling others what to spend their money on, but I’m very proud of what we have accomplished with RC and am confident that you’ll enjoy the work contained in Issue 1 that I urge you to purchase a copy. Too much photographic work is viewed on computer screens today and, honestly, it is rarely done the justice that print can do. While there is both a digital version and print version of Issue 1, I recommend that you buy the print version. Both can be purchased HERE. Print is not dead, and, when I hold a production like Rear Curtain in hand, I am happy it’s not.
Please spread the word on the print magazine release and visit the Rear Curtain website (www.rearcurtain.com) to see more of the work we are hosting. Leave comments; as always, both the RC staff and photographers are interested in hearing any feedback. Finally, keep an eye out for Issue 2 in the months to come…
I’ve heard there is a Senator talking of switching Halloween off of October 31 and making it a specific day of the year, like Thanksgiving is always the last Thursday of November. I am all for that. We had a good Halloween, but it seemed rush. The kids had school, had homework, a fast dinner and then rushing into town for Trick-or-Treating.
As usual I wanted to get pictures of this years outfits. But I wanted to play with my flash and snoot and try to make this year’s Halloween pictures moody and approbate for the costumes. While rushed, I like the harsh, contrasty light and think it was successful in setting these pictures apart from simply a photo of the kids in their costumes.
Two days before Halloween the kids had a dance/party at school and suited up. We had a Skeleton Ninja (scary crap, no?), a she-devil, and a Batgirl.
On Halloween we had a costume shuffle and ended up with a Ninja, She-devil, and a Duck[1].
I made a solo trip down to see some friends in Asheville, North Carolina last week. I planned the trip with two stages: 1. Relax in Asheville, hit the microbreweries and restaurants, and catch up with my friends. 2. Some solo time in the mountains along the Blue Ridge Parkway (BRP) at the peak of the Autumn color. And so it went.
The first night was filled with microbrews and food. The next day we worked those off with a 6-mile hike on the Appalachian Trail out of Craven’s Gap, Tennessee. My last day[1], I spent 6½ hours leisurely driving north along the BRP, stopping at vistas and doing short hikes before setting up camp for an evening of reading and writing in the tent as strong rains rolled in.
I didn’t take as many pictures as I had imagined or planned on. Partly because I was simply soaking a lot of the visuals in and didn’t want to put pressure on myself to produce images; I just wanted to relax and get away. There was another reason though that almost anyone that has photographed sweeping vistas and areas of vast beauty will understand: such landscapes simply can’t be translated into a picture. When I looked through my images back home, they gave the appearance I had traveled to two different regions entirely.
The hike along the AT traversed a series of mountain balds and then dropped down into the treeline. The winds were very strong out on the balds and fog was sweeping across the trail giving the landscape an ethereal and isolated feel. It was beautiful.
The following day was mostly sunny despite weather reports predicting rain. I left Ashville and started North on the BRP. I pulled off at the usual touristy overlooks, but made purposeful stops at areas with short 2–4 mile hikes to get away from the crowds and with hopes of taking pictures that weren’t already on every other camera card in the area. The day was beautiful and the colors were blaring from the hillsides.
Below are some images from the hike along the AT. I gave them a contrasty desaturated look because that is exactly how things appeared to me at the time. As I edited, I mulled over the practice of post processing. There is certainly a school of photography peopled by those that think any alterations to an image in post is fraudulent. I’m not one of them. For me, post processing is another tool (like a camera and lighting) to be used to help convey a photographer’s intent or purpose in an image. Overall, in my images I attempt to communicate what I felt when they were taken. Often times that includes adding some mood or atmosphere to the image in post. When the line is crossed in post processing where truth in photography becomes fabrication is highly subjective and variable based on subject and topic[2], but I do try to keep my post edits focused on the intent I had at the time the image was taken.
The trip was a boon to my psyche and great recharge. Hell, I might pick up an I ♡ Asheville bumper sticker to keep the feeling alive.
Photos of the Autumn color along the BRP I’ll share in another post.
Hastings Dairy, a local dairy farm, has had open houses every Saturday this October. We were able to make it with the kids to last Saturday’s.
We had a great time. They gave a tour of the dairy barns and milking parlor and had a tractor ride and calf petting area. It was very interesting to see the inner workings of a dairy and we like to expose our kids to the origins of what they eat.
I didn’t take as many pictures as I thought I would have and was more caught up with taking it all in myself. The pictures I did take were more pattern and textural based and lent themselves to a black and white conversion.
My wife skipped town for 11 days and today is school picture day. I avoided the dreaded braids and nailed the hair-dos!
Horses in, tractor out.
In between there was a cat, a miniature horse, fantastic stall lighting, cow milking, swinging, and a corn maze.
Great day.
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I love autumn. This time of year I get itchy feet and a need to be outdoors amongst nature.
This series started as a single picture of a dying coneflower. The texture of the flower and its symbolism of the season caught my eye and the idea spread onto other nearby objects
Happy autumn.
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